“When life does not find a singer to sing her heart, she produces a philosopher to speak her mind.”
~ Kahlil Gibran
The sky was like a watercolor painting this morning. And as I scanned through my photos, with their ever changing hues, I felt drawn once again to begin the art of painting. I mentioned this last March, having run into a landscape artist at the Marriott, who said he would teach me how to paint over my photographs. I’m now making a second intention for the year …
Last night I was also drawn to reconsider my writings here. As was the case at some point last year, it’s creating conflict within my relationship. There is a need for creative solitude surrounding what I do here, and it’s making my boyfriend feel uncomfortable in our small, mutually shared space. He feels he is tip-toeing around me. He wants someone with whom he can again share coffee with before 8AM.
I asked him why he isn’t using this same time to do something meaningful in his own life? A few years ago, he was up at the crack of dawn to go running, but that pursuit fell by the wayside after an injury.
It got us into a pretty heated discussion about life objectives. I don’t feel he is living up to his potential, or fulfilling his passionate purpose. And interestingly, he doesn’t feel I am either.
He left saying that “I should figure it out …. That I should learn to walk my talk.” Hummm ….
Earlier yesterday, a friend said she had some interesting thoughts while being quite sick last week with bronchitis. You know how fever and drugs can make the mind do some really weird things!!
Her mind kept asking her if she was happy where she is, with what she’s doing with her life. She’s very clear on her dreams for herself. She’s just not yet gotten up the gusto to completely fulfill those dreams. But she’s close! God created a beautiful singer to sing her heart!!! Keep questioning my friend 🙂
“A life’s purpose: It is the context, vessel or container which gives shape to our passions and into which we can pour our life.”
Or to quote Vincent Van Gogh: “Your profession is not what brings home your weekly paycheck, your profession is what you’re put here on earth to do, with such passion and such intensity that it becomes spiritual in calling.”
I’ve been blessed that my life has given me a number of vessels into which I can pour my intelligence and my desire to be of service to people. I feel my professional resume as an entrepreneur is a reflection of that. And while my current creative art and passion may not yet be affording me a separate income, I am none-the-less, pouring my heart into it.
I do feel that I am walking my talk …
Osho writes on creativity: “Your creativity may not give you power, prestige, money. No, I cannot promise you any rose-gardens. It may give you trouble. It may force you to live a poor man’s life. All that I can promise you is that deep inside you will be the richest man possible; deep inside you will be fulfilled; deep inside you will be full of joy and celebration. You will be continuously receiving more and more blessings from God. Your life will be a life of benediction.”
No, I will not be giving up my yoga, meditation and philosophical writings here. That would be like asking me to give up on a plant based diet. Never! They are an integral part of who I am and who I am becoming. I will adapt and make adjustments as necessary.
To my boyfriend I ask: What happened to the happy-go-lucky guy I met 20 years ago? Who was passionate about sailing and entertaining people on his boat. Who lived without a worry in the world?
I’ve succeeded in moving through a number of professional endeavors over the years. I’ve let go and moved on, when my passion faded. And you’ve helped me through all of that. Maybe you’ve lost yourself to my endeavors, I don’t know …. If so, I’m sorry.
What’s next for you? As your best friend and partner for almost half our lives, know that I am here for you. Follow what’s in your heart. I feel your soul crying out to find it ….
When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be.
When I let go of what I have, I receive what I need.
~ Tao Te Ching
Peace.
